U2- Vertigo

So I went to the doctors today, and found out that I have Vertigo.

What
The
Fuck


Soooo... how did I get this disorder, you ask?

Fucking Disneyland, apparently.




Didn't know that Alice in Wonderland was THAT legit... fuhh...



Well I'm pretty ready for winter and I'm sick of this hot California weather. I have all my clothes ready, and I'm down for a little stay-in-bed-all-day action. I wish it snowed here =T

HA;

and right when i thought things were changing between us.


NOTHING is going to change.





lol, once again i got my hopes up.
fuck my life.

Work hard Study hard?

No play hard.


I feel like I need a break from everything right now. I work too much and I study too much and I never have time for myself. Even on my days off I always have something I need to do before I go out and play for a couple of hours. Is this what it feels like to be a starving student / low payed adult?

I guess I gotta get used to it.



In other news, the Dodgers lost and I was deeply saddened by the victory of the Phillies. The Kuroda switchout was a big mistake. It's okay though, I'm still proud of my team for making it this far and I will always be a fan.



I had a dream about my grandfather. I kept trying to tell him I love him but a bunch of scary ass lookin' people kept talking and wouldn't let me say goodbye. So finally I yelled for them to stfu and my grandpa told me that they're taking him to a great place. It kind of felt like he was actually in my dream for a reason. I feel at peace about the situation now.





I'm dreading work today. Standing in a room for 4 hours, then clean clean clean clean clean. Good thing I'm a fast worker... because of me we usually get out earlier than expected.

Dodgers;

Love.


My dog is going to be a dodger dog for halloween.

.... get it?

NVM;

On the venting.
I got threatened in front of my house with a betty.



kidding.




Disneyland for 18 hours really did a toll on my body though.
But I spent it with the bestest boy ever.




Time to go hurt my body a little bit more at work.
It's funny what I go through for these animals when I won't even go to the extreme for myself.




and F that B.

iLOVE

FAKE PEOPLE!

It's ridiculous, really.


But Kelly is here, so I'll write more on this subject later.
Be prepared for the venting of a lifetime.

Good;

Morning.

Well it's afternoon now, but still.


I had a dream that I punched her in the face. It was actually a pretty good dream.
I don't hate her as much anymore.... I think.




In other news, I'm planning to go to Africa in January to help people with AIDS and to spread the news about the danger of it. So if you would like to make a donation for my plane ticket, PLEAAASE do so! I'll greatly appreciate it.


I have work today.
Why am I dreading it?


Hi Danny =]

Freedom;

My mother just got back from the motherland last night. Unfortunately, without Streetfighter IV in hand. It's okay though.

We went to my grandfathers funeral in Koreatown. I never knew that I could feel so much pain in my life. It won't be the last time I'm going to one of these either, and that is what scares me the most. It scares me shitless.



I have slept for only 5 hours within the last 48+ hours.
I'm still doing good though. Strawberry Mochis keep me awake. (a s i a n )





My weekend was great. Melody and I seriously tore up LB and Anaheim. They weren't ready for us. Especially the stupid chunti mother effers throwing Corona bottles at us and then getting tackled by the cops before I could get a hit at them.

It's funny how I regret messing up so much in highschool. I'm missing out on the whole 'real college' life because I thought that "everything was going to be okay." Everything IS okay, but dude I want to dorm it. I want to pull late night study sessions. I want to graduate on time. I want to experience that life. Instead I'm stuck at Cerritos College for another year, then transferring to Cal State Pomona or UC Davis. I guess it's all for the good, though. Atleast I'm not fucking up now since I got it all out of my system in highschool. I'm more responsible now and I have my priorities straight....

Everything happens for a reason.




Dodgers forever.
It's our year to shine.

really though;

if you're a true friend, atleast tell me to my face that i'm being selfish.
don't be a little douche.






s

It's like;

nothing I have ever felt before.



Right now I just want to go to the beach with starbucks in hand, a nice warm blanket, some music, and someone to start a conversation with.

I want to be that free spirited girl again.
It's been too long since I've been truly happy.




Things are rapidly getting better for me.
Thank you.

seriously

what am i getting myself into?
why do i keep doing this to myself?



i need to face the facts sooner or later...
i can't keep living in this fantasy world.

It's funny

how my father knows nothing of anything located in the house, but he knows EXACTLY where we keep the toilet paper, and how many rolls we need in each bathroom.